Maybe we are all stars?
Each glowing, bright mass is our conscious. How we, currently as human beings perceive it. The universe is so vast, so endless; because we in fact are endless. There is no time and we have no place. We just are. We are stars in that weightless moment, we are everything.
I heard someone scream my name and I thought it was him.
I just experienced the worst ten minutes of my life where I honestly thought he was gone. I was so scared that I was fumbling for my shoes in a daze so I could drive to work to make sure he’d made it there safe. I thought he was in the street somewhere, lost forever.
I can’t explain why this awful sensation scared me so much or how it had such solid grasp on me in the simple second that it took to hit me. All I knew was how sad, empty, and scared I was. I texted and called him right away, and in the ten minutes it took to respond; I sat on the bed, on the verge of tears and hysteria, waiting for a reply.
I was so relieved to hear his voice, you have no idea. How quickly my life changed and could have changed. I knew loss and sorrow in the truest from. It’s the worst feeling in the world.
I would die if I lost him. I know that now.
I miss having someone to share my love with. I don’t mean that in some mopey and blubbery way. I had a dream last night that reminded me of just how warm and wonderful being that close with someone else can be.
It reminded me how happy I would be to live not for someone else, but for an entity…
It’ll happen, Old friend.
Daft Punk while drawing.
I feel kind of epic
This has been the worst and best year of my life.
And I still feel like I’m fish flopping around for water.